I have begged
but it did not come
cried pitiful tears
wandering through the merciless city
crossed busy streets
and ignored the signs
but it would not come
pulled out my hair in frustration
cut myself in agony
hoping to bleed relentlessly
but it would not come
I have laughed
for once
smiled, with sincerity
hoped for the best
broke down my walls
and just when I had learned to live
it came
