Old flames

Old flames

I looked for you, and saw you

You were not the same, time had indeed changed you but I guess you could say the same for me. Your boyish looks had vanished, your eyes were dark and cold, so I kept myself unknown to you

The fear of awkward eye contact and stuttered words allowed me to just watch you, walking through the crowd and finding your way through the world

It seems though no matter how many paths you chose, none of them lead you to me nor will they ever


A lump of regret formed inside my throat as you trailed further off into the distance

I wish that we had ended on better terms, and that I could still call you a friend

Know that I waited for you

Know that I loved you

Know that I let go

Know that you never had to let me.....

Random thoughts occur when I should be working

Descartes says "I think therefore I am"



So I was wondering,


I think therefore I am, so am I not when I don't think? Further more saying that I am only live through thought and cease to exist when my mind draws blanks?

If something as simple as thinking defines us, then are we just that.....simple beings?

What if the complexity we have come to know that is existing, is created in our own minds? Because of life's challenges we've come believe that there is always a hidden agenda or bump in the road waiting for us at every bend.

Why can't we just .....be