If you should see me in the street, if it pleases you so then do wave and remember to make haste through the sea-walking as if with purpose and direction

If I should cry, and you are in your best dressed- I beg you do not lend me your shoulder, fine clothing is important to maintain

If I should sing too loudly and you are disturbed rightfully so, then please cover your ears, I can't stand to see you uncomfortable

If I should be in desperate need of your help and you have prior engagements-no worries old friend, first come first served they say

If I should wake up one morning and remember how to care for myself, then dear friend rejoice and move on with life

If I should stumble upon a treasure big enough for 3 lifetimess gladly I would wave back as I pass through in my chariot, dressed in my best, singing loudly and happily, no longer having to rely on you

As I continue on and you are left in the crowd no longer rejoicing, but regretful
For the friend you could have been, had you only the time and compassion- cursing karma and kicking rocks....

Live well old friend

bad romance

One look changed everything
Made a harlot of me
made me bite my hypocritical tongue

One lie destroyed me
And the next...and the next

I would be so lucky to blame the night
The music that defeaned my conscious or the lights that blinded my judgement
Or the peircing blues that caught my sad browns

But I was aware
And I knew better...

But I couldn't resist
Nor did I fight it

And then a smile
Tension, eyes watching...
Questions, doubt
Fear, desire
Curiousity
Words
Calls
Thoughts
Hate
Confused
Love
Hate
Delusions
Confused
You
Me
You
Me
You
Me

You

Me

anima libera

God grants me vindication
and i am reborn again
a free soul

No longer held down by the corrupted
hearts of men
and the darkness they follow

He reminds me that i am a being in his likeness
and i fear not death, nor pain
he gives me strength
and i will ascend
for even when the flesh is weak
the soul thrives
and i remain free

This human heart

Let's live forever you say
as we lie beneath the stars
we'll stay forever this way, and you truly believe
we are

immortal
immortal

lets watch the stars fall
and maybe discover how they shine
but they've come such a long way
so maybe their secrets should be mine

you have forever to find out on your own
because you are

immortal
immortal

(chorus)

But my human heart only beats so fast
and i cant keep up with you
And this flesh i call mine
will age in time
no i cant keep up you...

...but i'll try if you want me to



2nd verse


Surely we will live forever you say
you just have to believe
as we head towards the car...
i smile but i dont really agree

we wont stay forever this way
we are

mortal
mortal


You look up at the sky once more
and take it all in
because you know in your heart
that we will never be here again

and i wait in silence
feeling the sadness creeping in
the feeling that reminds me that we are

mortal
mortal


(chorus)

And this human heart of mine only beats so fast
i cant keep up with you
Yeah this flesh i call mine
will age in time
No i cant keep up with you

But i'll try if you want me to...


(bridge)

I hate to be the one
(to bring you down)

i hate to be the one
(to disappoint you)

oh oh oh....

this human heart begins to break
and i cant look at you
this tongue it hides behind these teeth
and dares not to speak the truth

so i'll sing these lies
if it pleases you
and pretend to agree when you say...

we'll stay forever this way

DEATH

I have prayed for it

I have begged

but it did not come

cried pitiful tears

wandering through the merciless city

crossed busy streets 

and ignored the signs

but it would not come

pulled out my hair in frustration

cut myself in agony

hoping to bleed relentlessly 

but it would not come

I have laughed

for once

smiled, with sincerity 

hoped for the best

broke down my walls

and just when I had learned to live

it came

dr suess

Lovers many
Friends none
Battles fought
Zero won

Scarred deeply
Bled dry
Everyone says
"At least you tried"

Liars liars
All I see
Fancy words
Polished thieves

Take a hit
Disappear
No one can see you
All the while you've been there

Laugh out loud
Cry inside
Time moves slower
Everytime I die

Broken heart
Aching bones
Tired feet
Withered soul

Run quick run!
To where the sun meets the moon
Over hear their conversation
Before night turns to noon

Read this and hate it
Or love it you decide
All the phonies will say
"At least you tried"

Clever one

I haven't yet figured it out

Nor have I honestly tried

Never took the time

to discover who you truly were

and yet

we loved?

or

atleast we pretended 

which would be fair

For after all we were children

and children do pretend

and yet an inkling of truth

behind those starlit eyes

inspires uncertainty and doubt

even now after all those years

how does one pretend

to love, how does one

in an age of innocence 

know how to fake such an emotion?

is that not something learned over time

when hearts have frozen over from

hurt and regret? when walls

are built to protect whats left?

ah! I have discovered you after all

my day late friend!

clever one